Ever have one of those days when you can't stop wondering...what if I had a different life? What if I'd taken another job, had/not had children, married someone/else or not married at all? Different career? Would I be a different person? How much different, and in a good way or not?
At certain points in my life, I've played this game. Now, some of you may say, "but what does that accomplish? It's hurtful". And to that I'd say, not always. If I can look back and wonder "what if I'd kept my job working offshore", most certainly the answer is "you'd be crazy by now, and probably would have been in one bad relationship after another". I think that wondering about what might have been is ok to a point, but it does become problematic when you spend so much time thinking about things in the past that you can't deal (or won't) with the present. I mean, I could wax poetic about previous events in my life, but realizing that I am where I am and it's a good place is more important. What really matters is that each day I wake up and know that this life IS good.
That said, I need a new job. Anybody hiring a fabric enthusiast?
In other news, it's Friday. It couldn't have gotten here soon enough. Last night we moved all of the furniture (including the salt tank) out of the family room in anticipation of new carpet being installed next week sometime. I'm looking forward to the carpet, but man that tank is a nightmare to move! I pulled out half the water so Carl could pick it up easier and it was STILL way heavy. He ended up putting it onto a dolly and fishy took a ride. The water was really cloudy after I filled the tank back up, but this morning it looked like it had settled down some. However, Prince Albert was nowhere to be seen. Maybe he was in the can. Hahaha! Get it? I'm sure he'll be fine. Hope he likes his temporary digs in the living room.
I'm so glad we're getting the carpet. We've had this ugly brown indoor/outdoor carpeting since we moved in, and it was really on its last legs. My Mom and I picked out a neutral berber, and I think it's going to look great. I just hope it's not too light.
Back to work!
Posted by tomiandc at November 11, 2005 08:55 AM